12/31/2014
12/29/2014
Every day is the beginning of your new year
I don't make resolutions on January 1st. If I want to change something about myself or improve an area of my life, now is always the best time. If I want to end something, now is the best time. The new me or new year can start anytime I'm ready.
I was thinking about past New Years's Eves earlier, and I realized I couldn't remember many of them. There just wasn't anything that stood out to remember, except for the one in this story. It was the New
Years Eve, about 6 months after I lost someone very dear to me, I was having problems moving on.
Every day is the beginning of your new year
I don't make resolutions on January 1st. If I want to change something about myself or improve an area of my life, now is always the best time. If I want to end something, now is the best time. The new me or new year can start anytime I'm ready.
I was thinking about past New Years's Eves earlier, and I realized I couldn't remember many of them. There just wasn't anything that stood out to remember, except for the one in this story. It was the New
Years Eve, about 6 months after I lost someone very dear to me, I was having problems moving on.
12/26/2014
Back in high school, a few of my friends suggested we chip in and go skiing for Christmas instead of spending it at home. No adults to tell us what to do. Wonderful! I got permission from my grandparents, and my friends received the okay from their parents. I mulled it over for days, not sure if I wanted to be away for the holiday, but I went. We were off to a ski lodge in the mountains two days before Christmas.
We had two large rooms, one for the guys and one for the girls, with a connecting door. There were two queen-size beds and three cots in each room. We unpacked and explored the lodge and ski area. The snow was coming down hard, with big fluffy flakes blanketing everything.
"Maybe we'll get snowed in," someone said. "Awesome," everyone said in unison. "Maybe we won't make it back to school until spring. Wahoo!"
The place was beautiful. The multi-colored Christmas lights blinked everywhere, and a 12 foot high decorated tree sat like a glowing jewel in the lobby. We could see the trail horse barn through the windows, which had strings of colored lights and a giant green wreath over its doors. It was like something out of a picture postcard.
I looked over at Cynch and smiled. Her name was Cynthia, but I called her Cynch. We grew up together and had become inseparable. I took her hand, and we walked outside. The air was so crisp, and the smell of pine was intoxicating. We looked out over the mountains, and I put my arm around her. She kissed my cheek and giggled as I gave her a hug.
Cynch smiled, dusted the snow off my shoulders, and looked into my eyes. "I'm glad you came. I didn't think you would."
"Me too. There was no way I was missing spending this time with you." I pulled her closer and kissed her, and sparks tingled up my spine.
We filled the rest of the day with skiing, laughter, and a few spills. I love skiing, but I'm never good at it. My friends find that entertaining! By evening we were all spent and ready to crash. The next day was December 24th, so we turned in a little early, and I fell right to sleep.
I thought it was a dream. The ringing sound was so far away, echoing in my head, and then grew louder. Was it my alarm clock? After pounding the snooze button, the ringing continued. It was the phone. I looked at the clock, and it was 3am. I heard one of the other guys pick it up, and then I heard my name. No one calls at 3am unless something is wrong. My heart was pounding as I answered.
The line was a mess of static and was challenging to hear. It was my Grandmother. "Peter, Grandpa had to go to the hospital. They think it was a heart attack." I felt frozen in place. "Can you hear me, Peter?"
"Yeah, I heard you." A thousand screams ripped through my head. "I'm coming home right now."
"No, Peter. The man at the front desk told me the roads were closed because of the storm. Stay there. I'll call as soon as I know anything more. I love you."
"Love you too, Grandma." I didn't know if she heard me because the static on the phone was louder. I hung up, and my friends were now in the room, so I told them the news.
Cynch pulled me aside, told me she was sorry, and asked if she could do anything. I grabbed her hands and squeezed. "I need to go home now… can you think of anything? If something happens to my Grandfather and I'm not there, I'll never forgive myself." I was having a tough time keeping it together.
She put her hand on the back of my neck and then hugged me close. She always knew how to calm me down. I could almost feel her thinking, and then she said, "Let's talk to the man at the desk. Maybe you can use a snowmobile to get into town and hitch a ride from there."
We got dressed and went down to talk to the desk clerk, but he wasn't any help. He said he couldn't let me use a snowmobile under any circumstances.
We walked over and sat on a bench near the window. "Damn! I feel so cut off here. My Grandfather might be dying." And then I remembered the trail horses and got my not-so-brilliant idea. "Cynch, I'll take one of the trail horses down the mountain into town. I can ask someone for a ride the rest of the way."
Cynch jumped up and said, "All right then. Let's go."
I got my stuff together, sneaked out to the stables, and chose a horse. He was a friendly beauty, and I still remember his name. It was Jock. I led him outside.
Cynch was waiting. "Can you help me up?"
"No. I can't take you with me. I don't want to get you into trouble. Besides, when they notice the horse missing, you can tell them why I took him and where I went." I could tell it upset her, and she was angry with me.
"I knew you would do this. I want to come with… but fine. You call me right away when you get to town. Promise? Please don't let me sit here and worry."
"I promise." Putting my arms around her, we hugged tight. I didn't want to let go. "I love you, Cynch."
"Love you, Peter, but I don't like you right now." She had a pouty lip thing going on.
I got up on the horse and looked back at Cynch. "I'll just have to work extra hard to get you to like me again then." She giggled, and it made my stomach tickle. "I'll see you soon."
I heard her whisper as I rode away, "Be careful, and don't forget to call."
It was light out by the time I got to town. I miscalculated how long it would take before anyone noticed a missing horse because a police officer was waiting for me. "Get down from there and come with me. What the hell do you think you were doing?" I knew the officer. I'll call him Officer Mike. He was a friend of my Uncle John's.
"Mike, Grandpa is in the hospital. I was desperate and had no other way to get to him."
"I'm sorry to hear it, but you can't just take a horse like that. Who do you think you are?"
"Mike, you don't have to call Uncle John, do you?" The last person I wanted to know about what I'd done was Uncle John. The man did not like me, and I wasn't too fond of him either. If I'm being honest, he was imposing and ornery and scared the crap out of me.
Mike smiled out the corner of his mouth as he led me to the station. "He's already on his way."
I wanted to puke.
Once inside, he led me to one cell and shut the door. "Your Uncle doesn't want you wandering off now. The owner of the horse isn't pressing any charges, but he wants to have a talk with you in a few days."
"How long do I have to stay in here? I need to call my girlfriend at the lodge. She's worried."
"Until your Uncle gets here. Sit tight. Your girlfriend knows where you are and why you haven't called." He walked back out to the office. After a while, I heard the phone ring, and then footsteps. "Peter, that was your Uncle, and he won't be able to collect you until morning. He asked me to tell you your Grandfather is better, and it was a mild heart attack, but he should recover fine. John wants you to stay here tonight."
"I thought I wasn't under arrest? I have to stay in here all night? Come on, Mike. Let me out of here, please. I want to see my Grandpa."
"Can't do it. You'll be fine here. I'll bring you some dinner. There will be an officer here all night if you need something, and I'll look in on you later too." He was about to leave but turned back and looked at me with concern. "You should think about what you did. It was wrong. What if you would have hurt the horse, or worse? What if you froze to death out there? Would your Grandfather need something like that right now?"
"No, he wouldn't. I am sorry, Mike." He turned and walked out, leaving me with my thoughts and worries. I wished I could talk to Cynch.
After dinner, the day's events caught up with me, and I felt exhausted. The bed looked rickety, so I sat down on the floor and went to sleep. I had awful nightmares. The night seemed endless, but morning came, and Uncle John picked me up.
We didn't talk much during the drive. I was still miffed about being locked up in jail all night. He broke the silence first. "What are you going to tell that man? The owner of the horse."
"I don't know. The truth, I guess. I'll just tell him the truth and hope he understands."
"That's a good man, Pete. The truth is always best. Most of the time, anyway. What will you tell your Grandpa?"
I sighed and squirmed in my seat. "Don't know. I will disappoint him. He'll think he didn't raise me right or something. I'm not a thief. I panicked and didn't think it through."
Once at the hospital, I ran up the stairs and hightailed it to his room. He looked great for having just had a heart attack. It relieved me no end. "Merry Christmas, Grandpa! I gave him a gentle hug."
"Peter! Merry Christmas. What are you doing here? I thought you were skiing."
"Grandma called and told me what happened. I had to come and see if you were all right."
"But how did you get here? We heard the storm was bad."
I knew I couldn't keep it from him forever, so I took a deep breath, "I need to tell you something, Grandpa. I did somethi —"
Uncle John interrupted, "The kid was with me. I would have gotten him here sooner, but I had a work thing crop up yesterday, so Pete stayed with a friend. I picked him up this morning, and here we are." He looked over and gave me a wink.
Grandpa studied us, his eyes darting from me to my Uncle, and then he laughed. "You two have a secret, and that's okay with me. I think I'm getting out of here today, and I'm just glad you're here."
I glanced at Uncle John and smiled. Sometimes, just when you think you have someone figured out, they surprise you. Most folks have things buried deep within them you can uncover if you take the time to look. I found kindness Uncle John had hidden there all the time. We got along much better after that. Oh, and Cynch forgave me too! =]:)
© 2014 Peter Noah Thomas ~ All Rights Reserved
Back in high school, a few of my friends suggested we chip in and go skiing for Christmas instead of spending it at home. No adults to tell us what to do. Wonderful! I got permission from my grandparents, and my friends received the okay from their parents. I mulled it over for days, not sure if I wanted to be away for the holiday, but I went. We were off to a ski lodge in the mountains two days before Christmas.
We had two large rooms, one for the guys and one for the girls, with a connecting door. There were two queen-size beds and three cots in each room. We unpacked and explored the lodge and ski area. The snow was coming down hard, with big fluffy flakes blanketing everything.
"Maybe we'll get snowed in," someone said. "Awesome," everyone said in unison. "Maybe we won't make it back to school until spring. Wahoo!"
The place was beautiful. The multi-colored Christmas lights blinked everywhere, and a 12 foot high decorated tree sat like a glowing jewel in the lobby. We could see the trail horse barn through the windows, which had strings of colored lights and a giant green wreath over its doors. It was like something out of a picture postcard.
I looked over at Cynch and smiled. Her name was Cynthia, but I called her Cynch. We grew up together and had become inseparable. I took her hand, and we walked outside. The air was so crisp, and the smell of pine was intoxicating. We looked out over the mountains, and I put my arm around her. She kissed my cheek and giggled as I gave her a hug.
Cynch smiled, dusted the snow off my shoulders, and looked into my eyes. "I'm glad you came. I didn't think you would."
"Me too. There was no way I was missing spending this time with you." I pulled her closer and kissed her, and sparks tingled up my spine.
We filled the rest of the day with skiing, laughter, and a few spills. I love skiing, but I'm never good at it. My friends find that entertaining! By evening we were all spent and ready to crash. The next day was December 24th, so we turned in a little early, and I fell right to sleep.
I thought it was a dream. The ringing sound was so far away, echoing in my head, and then grew louder. Was it my alarm clock? After pounding the snooze button, the ringing continued. It was the phone. I looked at the clock, and it was 3am. I heard one of the other guys pick it up, and then I heard my name. No one calls at 3am unless something is wrong. My heart was pounding as I answered.
The line was a mess of static and was challenging to hear. It was my Grandmother. "Peter, Grandpa had to go to the hospital. They think it was a heart attack." I felt frozen in place. "Can you hear me, Peter?"
"Yeah, I heard you." A thousand screams ripped through my head. "I'm coming home right now."
"No, Peter. The man at the front desk told me the roads were closed because of the storm. Stay there. I'll call as soon as I know anything more. I love you."
"Love you too, Grandma." I didn't know if she heard me because the static on the phone was louder. I hung up, and my friends were now in the room, so I told them the news.
Cynch pulled me aside, told me she was sorry, and asked if she could do anything. I grabbed her hands and squeezed. "I need to go home now… can you think of anything? If something happens to my Grandfather and I'm not there, I'll never forgive myself." I was having a tough time keeping it together.
She put her hand on the back of my neck and then hugged me close. She always knew how to calm me down. I could almost feel her thinking, and then she said, "Let's talk to the man at the desk. Maybe you can use a snowmobile to get into town and hitch a ride from there."
We got dressed and went down to talk to the desk clerk, but he wasn't any help. He said he couldn't let me use a snowmobile under any circumstances.
We walked over and sat on a bench near the window. "Damn! I feel so cut off here. My Grandfather might be dying." And then I remembered the trail horses and got my not-so-brilliant idea. "Cynch, I'll take one of the trail horses down the mountain into town. I can ask someone for a ride the rest of the way."
Cynch jumped up and said, "All right then. Let's go."
I got my stuff together, sneaked out to the stables, and chose a horse. He was a friendly beauty, and I still remember his name. It was Jock. I led him outside.
Cynch was waiting. "Can you help me up?"
"No. I can't take you with me. I don't want to get you into trouble. Besides, when they notice the horse missing, you can tell them why I took him and where I went." I could tell it upset her, and she was angry with me.
"I knew you would do this. I want to come with… but fine. You call me right away when you get to town. Promise? Please don't let me sit here and worry."
"I promise." Putting my arms around her, we hugged tight. I didn't want to let go. "I love you, Cynch."
"Love you, Peter, but I don't like you right now." She had a pouty lip thing going on.
I got up on the horse and looked back at Cynch. "I'll just have to work extra hard to get you to like me again then." She giggled, and it made my stomach tickle. "I'll see you soon."
I heard her whisper as I rode away, "Be careful, and don't forget to call."
It was light out by the time I got to town. I miscalculated how long it would take before anyone noticed a missing horse because a police officer was waiting for me. "Get down from there and come with me. What the hell do you think you were doing?" I knew the officer. I'll call him Officer Mike. He was a friend of my Uncle John's.
"Mike, Grandpa is in the hospital. I was desperate and had no other way to get to him."
"I'm sorry to hear it, but you can't just take a horse like that. Who do you think you are?"
"Mike, you don't have to call Uncle John, do you?" The last person I wanted to know about what I'd done was Uncle John. The man did not like me, and I wasn't too fond of him either. If I'm being honest, he was imposing and ornery and scared the crap out of me.
Mike smiled out the corner of his mouth as he led me to the station. "He's already on his way."
I wanted to puke.
Once inside, he led me to one cell and shut the door. "Your Uncle doesn't want you wandering off now. The owner of the horse isn't pressing any charges, but he wants to have a talk with you in a few days."
"How long do I have to stay in here? I need to call my girlfriend at the lodge. She's worried."
"Until your Uncle gets here. Sit tight. Your girlfriend knows where you are and why you haven't called." He walked back out to the office. After a while, I heard the phone ring, and then footsteps. "Peter, that was your Uncle, and he won't be able to collect you until morning. He asked me to tell you your Grandfather is better, and it was a mild heart attack, but he should recover fine. John wants you to stay here tonight."
"I thought I wasn't under arrest? I have to stay in here all night? Come on, Mike. Let me out of here, please. I want to see my Grandpa."
"Can't do it. You'll be fine here. I'll bring you some dinner. There will be an officer here all night if you need something, and I'll look in on you later too." He was about to leave but turned back and looked at me with concern. "You should think about what you did. It was wrong. What if you would have hurt the horse, or worse? What if you froze to death out there? Would your Grandfather need something like that right now?"
"No, he wouldn't. I am sorry, Mike." He turned and walked out, leaving me with my thoughts and worries. I wished I could talk to Cynch.
After dinner, the day's events caught up with me, and I felt exhausted. The bed looked rickety, so I sat down on the floor and went to sleep. I had awful nightmares. The night seemed endless, but morning came, and Uncle John picked me up.
We didn't talk much during the drive. I was still miffed about being locked up in jail all night. He broke the silence first. "What are you going to tell that man? The owner of the horse."
"I don't know. The truth, I guess. I'll just tell him the truth and hope he understands."
"That's a good man, Pete. The truth is always best. Most of the time, anyway. What will you tell your Grandpa?"
I sighed and squirmed in my seat. "Don't know. I will disappoint him. He'll think he didn't raise me right or something. I'm not a thief. I panicked and didn't think it through."
Once at the hospital, I ran up the stairs and hightailed it to his room. He looked great for having just had a heart attack. It relieved me no end. "Merry Christmas, Grandpa! I gave him a gentle hug."
"Peter! Merry Christmas. What are you doing here? I thought you were skiing."
"Grandma called and told me what happened. I had to come and see if you were all right."
"But how did you get here? We heard the storm was bad."
I knew I couldn't keep it from him forever, so I took a deep breath, "I need to tell you something, Grandpa. I did somethi —"
Uncle John interrupted, "The kid was with me. I would have gotten him here sooner, but I had a work thing crop up yesterday, so Pete stayed with a friend. I picked him up this morning, and here we are." He looked over and gave me a wink.
Grandpa studied us, his eyes darting from me to my Uncle, and then he laughed. "You two have a secret, and that's okay with me. I think I'm getting out of here today, and I'm just glad you're here."
I glanced at Uncle John and smiled. Sometimes, just when you think you have someone figured out, they surprise you. Most folks have things buried deep within them you can uncover if you take the time to look. I found kindness Uncle John had hidden there all the time. We got along much better after that. Oh, and Cynch forgave me too! =]:)
© 2014 Peter Noah Thomas ~ All Rights Reserved
12/10/2014
I love a good thunderstorm, don't you? Of course, this word may also refer to someone who has indigestion, no?
I love a good thunderstorm, don't you? Of course, this word may also refer to someone who has indigestion, no?
12/07/2014
When everything is moving and shifting, the only way to counteract chaos is stillness. When things feel extraordinary, strive for ordinary. When the surface is wavy, dive deeper for quieter waters. - Kristin Armstrong
Pronounced: /kwēˈesnt,kwīˈesnt/ [qui·es·cent]
Here is a sentence: On those quiescent days, she was her normal self, the self she understood and had confidence in.
Okay, your turn! Have a great rest of the week.
When everything is moving and shifting, the only way to counteract chaos is stillness. When things feel extraordinary, strive for ordinary. When the surface is wavy, dive deeper for quieter waters. - Kristin Armstrong
Pronounced: /kwēˈesnt,kwīˈesnt/ [qui·es·cent]
Here is a sentence: On those quiescent days, she was her normal self, the self she understood and had confidence in.
Okay, your turn! Have a great rest of the week.
11/04/2014
Last week was a mother of a week. I haven't talked about it, other than with one person on G+, but I want to talk about it a little now.
I have a buddy who I consider to be one of my best friends in the world. He went through a shock last week, and it sent him into atailspin . It was something unexpected, but something everyone will experience at some point in their life.
When I see one of my friends going through aheartbreak , my heart shatters into pieces along with theirs. I'm sure many of you can relate. In the past, I would try whatever I could to make it all better. Of course, that is impossible, but you have a deep need to help mend their wounds when you love someone. And in the process, and not intentionally, you can cause more harm than good. It took me years to learn that lesson, but thankfully, I finally understood with a lot of trial and error.
I watched the people fluttering around him for most of the week. Well-meaning folks who needed to make it all better. It wasn't working.He was tail -spinning while trying to put up a brave front, and I could tell he was ready to implode. It was Friday night, and more relatives and friends were due to drop in on him throughout the weekend, so I had an idea.
Early Saturday morning, I drove over and knocked. He answered the door. He was dressedalready but obviously hadn't slept much. I told him I was kidnapping him for the weekend. He protested, but I talked him into it, and we left for a day of hiking, and I thought, maybe some talking. We found ourselves by one of the waterfalls in Yellowstone and sat down to look at it for a bit. And we didn't talk at all. Not a word. For two hours we sat and watched the waterfall. It was peaceful, comforting, and renewing, and there were no words spoken at all. It was the closest I've ever felt to him, and it was beautiful.
After about two hours, he stretched and turned to me and said, "thank you." Not a casual thank you, but a deep andheartfeltt thank you with relief in his voice. There was also a smile I hadn't seen in over a week. I said, "you're welcome, buddy," but what I really wanted to say was thank you to him. Thank you for letting me help you through some of the pain without uttering any words or giving any advice at all. Just two friends in each other's company, and that was all he needed.
So, if it feels like your butterflies have died, don't be afraid to tell a friend or loved one that all you need is for them to sit silently with you for a while until the butterflies come back again. It might take a while, but the butterflies will come back.
© 2014 Peter Noah Thomas ~ All Rights Reserved
Last week was a mother of a week. I haven't talked about it, other than with one person on G+, but I want to talk about it a little now.
I have a buddy who I consider to be one of my best friends in the world. He went through a shock last week, and it sent him into a
When I see one of my friends going through a
I watched the people fluttering around him for most of the week. Well-meaning folks who needed to make it all better. It wasn't working.
Early Saturday morning, I drove over and knocked. He answered the door. He was dressed
After about two hours, he stretched and turned to me and said, "thank you." Not a casual thank you, but a deep andheartfelt
So, if it feels like your butterflies have died, don't be afraid to tell a friend or loved one that all you need is for them to sit silently with you for a while until the butterflies come back again. It might take a while, but the butterflies will come back.
© 2014 Peter Noah Thomas ~ All Rights Reserved
10/31/2014
© 2014 Peter Noah Thomas ~ All Rights Reserved
Pic from: http://goo.gl/Thn21m
Pracillian Pernicious sits on a bench, contemplating her lot in life. Wherever she went, she made people regret; her gaze would cut like a knife. But why, she pondered, can they not agree with the things I love the most? I'm quite special, you see; you needn't flee, "Oh! I don't like to boast!"
While most little girls love dolls and curls and days full of sunshine and wonder. "Oh my," she feigned, then looked quite disdained, "Oh! I love lightning and thunder!"
Now, just down the road lived rich Mr. Goad, who had ruined many a man. He took pleasure from pillage, each man in the village, "Oh! I'm his biggest fan!" The story goes no one really knows how he came to be locked in his vault. "The air was too thin," she said with a grin, "Oh! It wasn't my fault!"
Mr. Green was a banker, a real wanker, foreclosing his pride and joy. To evict was a pleasure, to add to his treasure, so many dreams to destroy. His yacht was a beauty, paid for with his booty. Oh, boy, what a wonderful trip. When they lowered the anchor, it fell on the banker, "Oh! He went down with his ship!"
And lest we forget, Violet O'Dett, who survived 5 husbands to date. Though it's been said she poisoned them dead, now she has succumbed to their fate. Pracillian reached into her pocket, pulled out a locket, and opened the tiny lid. Inside was a pill to poison and kill, "Oh! But I never did!"
Then, the bats in the sky started to fly and circled around her head. Fog high as her knees, wind rushing through trees, loud enough to wake up the dead. The full moon is aglow, lighting below, casting shadows all over the place. A powder complexion, white china perfection, a sweet smile swept over her face. Her eyes are ablaze, a black veil of haze, pinning you onto the ground. Are your scruples askew? Is she coming for you? "Oh! I won't make a sound!"
© 2014 Peter Noah Thomas ~ All Rights Reserved
10/06/2014
I hope you all had a nice weekend. I did, and it's one I'll remember for a while. The weather was wonderful, so a few of us decided to go do some horseback riding. It was nice seeing some folks I hadn't spent time with in months and, in some cases, much longer.
We did a pot-luck picnic afterward. Everyone brought something, and let me tell you, I had my share. Whew! Stuffed to the gills. I brought scalloped potatoes and ham, and people seemed to like it, but I was more interested in all the other foods and desserts.
It was wonderful catching up with everyone and hearing about their lives, trials, and wins. Of course, we had quite a few laughs as well. The time seems to go by far too fast. We were all getting ready to leave, making sure we picked up everything and saying our goodbyes, everyone making promises to do this more often, and hoping we do.
I turned to head back to my vehicle when someone ran up behind me and called my name. I turned around, and it was Jim (not his real name). Jim and his family used to live closer to me, but they have moved to a neighboring town. I'd say Jim is about 17 now. I had an immediate flashback to a couple years ago. Jim started going jogging and hiking with me. He was a little chubby back then, and he was hoping I could give him some tips and such so he could lose weight. He wanted to join the track team at school, but some of the kids would tease him and tell him to forget the track team because of his size.
Each day when I would get to the place where I go running, there would be Jim. Even on sweltering days, Jim wore heavy sweats because he was so self-conscious. We had many discussions about exercise, food, and the like. We also had conversations about why people are mean sometimes and how they themselves are insecure. Jim made outstanding progress, and then his family had to move. He promised he would keep up the routine at his new home. Unfortunately, I lost touch with Jim and his family until today.
Jim reached out to shake my hand, and he said, "I never thanked you, and I wanted to do that now."
I thought he was joking, so I made a wisecrack and chuckled.
He laughed but then said, "No, I'm serious. If you hadn't let me jog with you, and the talks... I don't think I would have made the track team." He wrinkled his nose and shook his head, "Naw. I know I wouldn't have."
I didn't know what to say. I never knew at the time that this was so important to him. The only thing I could say was that I hadn't done anything and how proud he should be of himself. We chatted a few more minutes, and then he turned to leave. I was feeling so good about what he had accomplished and how he completely transformed himself. He took a few steps but then turned around again.
You know what this kid said to me? He said, "Peter, you should be a Dad. You'd be a really good one." And then he ran off to his family's vehicle. I just stood there and watched while everyone drove away. I was glad he ran off so quickly cause I got a little choked up. I finally got in my vehicle and drove home, thinking about it all the way.
I wanted to tell you this at the start of a new week because you just can't know how a kind word or the smallest gesture can affect someone far deeper than you can imagine. Words, simple words, can heal, and it takes so little of your time. Maybe this week, you can help someone feel good about themselves. Believe me, if you do that, it will make your heart sing too. Have a wonderful week!
© 2014 Peter Noah Thomas ~ All Rights Reserved
8/22/2014
It's raining here tonight, and big puffy rain clouds are hanging out in the sky. The stars aren't shining down on me tonight. I hope they are shining on you.
Early this afternoon, outside a grocery store, I bumped into a friend I hadn't seen in some months. We were never close friends, more like acquaintances, really. I knew him through other friends and would see him now and then. I walked over to his truck and said hello. We chitchatted a bit, but he seemed down.
I asked him if anything was wrong, and he said, No, nothing. He then turned around and leaned his back against his vehicle. He looked up at the cloudy sky and said something like, "I don't think it will ever clear up. The sun has deserted us."
I chuckled and told him I like the rain, the way it smells, and the way it makes everything green and fresh.
"Well, you can have it," he said. He wasn't smiling. He just kept staring forward.
I was feeling awkward, not knowing what to say next, and sometimes I can be clueless and not know when to stop. So I say something like, "the world may look all grey right now, but the sun is right up there above the clouds, just as bright and warm as ever. It'll be back before you know it."
He turned and looked at me with such anger that I stepped back a little. He clenched his fist, and I thought he was going to punch me right in the mouth, and I probably deserved it. Instead, he slammed his fist into the side of his truck and said, "are you always so goddamned happy?"
I was stunned and didn't know what to say. I heard the words, "No, I'm not always happy," come out of my mouth. I apologized and told him I hoped I didn't come off that way. I was just trying to cheer him up and didn't mean to make light of his mood.
He looked down at the ground for a moment, and he said he was sorry and was just having a bad day. Then he started to cry. We walked across the street to a little park and sat on a picnic table, and talked. Thursday was the anniversary of a tragic event that took the life of someone he loved, and it was eating him up inside.
I've been acquainted with this guy for several years, but I never took the time to get to know him. I had no idea this had happened to him. I feel pretty rotten about that. Now I keep replaying it in my mind; what I should have done and what I shouldn't have said. I knew something was very wrong but didn't handle it well. I invited him camping this weekend so we can talk some more. He accepted.
I can't stop being or feeling positive. It's just who I am, but sometimes folks don't want or need cheering up. They just want someone to listen or to be there. Of course, I already knew this, but I decided my way was better somewhere along the road. How presumptuous. Probably because I deal with negative events and experiences by looking for the positive, hoping it will overshadow the bad. And for me, that usually helps. It isn't what everyone wants or needs, though. I'll be more mindful of that from now on.
I'm going to try to catch some sleep. Have a wonderful night, or morning or afternoon.
© 2014 Peter Noah Thomas ~ All Rights Reserved
6/21/2014
When the stars come out and shine so bright,
when the owl says "who" in the darkness of night.
And the moon starts to glow with his happy face,
it's time to go to that magical place.
I can only find when my world goes to sleep,
and I can't get there by just counting sheep.
So I hoist the sails of my little dream boat,
I climb aboard and away I float.
To the far away beaches that live in my mind,
and some peaceful rest is what I shall find.
Good night friends!
© 2014 Peter Noah Thomas
When the stars come out and shine so bright,
when the owl says "who" in the darkness of night.
And the moon starts to glow with his happy face,
it's time to go to that magical place.
I can only find when my world goes to sleep,
and I can't get there by just counting sheep.
So I hoist the sails of my little dream boat,
I climb aboard and away I float.
To the far away beaches that live in my mind,
and some peaceful rest is what I shall find.
Good night friends!
© 2014 Peter Noah Thomas